According to Robert Frost, “Poetry is when an emotion has found its thought and the thought has found words.” I really love this; of course, what don't I love from Mr. Frost? What a beautifully concise description of the process of creating poetry... especially the poems that, when completed, we read back to ourselves and wonder "where did that just come from?" I don't feel like "I" have written those. It's like whatever the emotion was that stirred in my soul grabbed onto its thought, quite independent of any conscious doing on my part, and together they discovered their words... and I am responsible only for putting them to paper. It's beautiful when a poem is born that way!
Saturday, September 20, 2014
Perfect Imperfection
With the release of my first book of poems (you can purchase it here!)
I'm also re-introducing my blog... and it's very much a work in progress, just
like me. So, off we go!
Okay. So it's no big secret that I am a believer in talk therapy
(a devotee, as my wonderful therapist recently anointed me). It has quite
honestly been the best gift I could have ever given to myself; and I encourage
anyone who has ever thought about embarking on the immensely rewarding
adventure of self-knowledge to just go for it!
Now to the point of this post... after much stalling on my part
(read: being a big chicken) I finally put together a selection of my most
recent poems to self-publish, and submitted my little book to the independent
publisher I had chosen to use. Submitted, reviewed, made changes; resubmitted,
reviewed, made more changes; resubmitted, reviewed... well, you get the idea.
After doing this numerous times I decided that if I continued to make changes
until I thought it was perfect, I would likely never click on that scary
"approve" button. I would remain stuck in the land of "big fat
chicken" for the rest of my life. So, I took a deep breath and approved my
book.
Yes folks, some of you have already guessed what comes next. The
following morning, I looked at my proof again and discovered that I had
submitted the wrong contents page. Eek!! So, it's out
there now on Amazon, just as imperfect as I am....
Oh, I could probably jump through a few hoops with the publisher
and try to do a last-minute correction. But if there's one thing I've learned
in my therapy process, it's that I'm
never going to be perfect -
what I want to be, instead, is whole. Leaving my book out there
"imperfect" is to me a testament to my acceptance of being
imperfectly human; a promise to myself that I will never again let the fear of
not being "perfect" keep me from realizing a dream.
I don't mean to advocate carelessness, or being lazy, or anything
along those lines. That's not what this is about. This is about loving
ourselves enough to accept that we will never be perfect and that it is
"perfectly okay" to go out and make our dreams come true anyway!!
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